this organization thing is driving me crazy. with ramadan, it's been quite hard to get myself motivated to clean up the HS room and declutter... i literally don't get any time in the day to sit and just think for an hour straight. i get sidetracked every 2min by "moma, give me this..mama, i'm hungry. mama, do this..."... last week i was feeling sooooo exhausted mentally with no patience with any of the kids and definitely not DH. i know he's doing 2 jobs and with that in mind, i make every attempt to free him up when he is home...but i get to this point of nervous breakdown where even simple laughter of the girls gets to my nerves.. it's scary to think about it...
back in april when i was having real trouble with everything (my health, sleep, diet, no exercise, no minute to myself, anger/resentment towards DH), my doc was surprised to hear that i wasn't utilizing all my resources and help from my family to help me out. i wasn't because it would require me to go to lakeforest several times during the week and that would translate to gas to money...and who would have an issue with it?? the comment was "again? why??" so what do i do? struggle & suffer alone and go downhill instead and am not able to give my best to my children and as a result they suffer... maturity, self-respect... hmmmm. more to think about...
for "clocking in/out" i like the idea here with the pic of the child instead of a dwg.
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